Miss you still.........always

Even though I have this new, amazing addition to our family.....I still miss Faith just as strongly(maybe even more so, if that is actually possible). Faith loved babies and I can hear her voice, filled with excitement, about our new one. She would have been such a sweet big sister. Even during her final days, when she would hear a baby cry in the hospital, her brow would crease in concern. I would have to whisper in her ear that the baby was ok and stroke her brow to calm her down. That was the beautiful spirit of my Faith. She had her own concerns, but still was able to feel beyond herself into the anguish of another.

We are almost to our year mark and I am flooded with memories. My main thing right now, though, is wishing I could hold her. Maybe it is getting to hold this new one that conjures up those thoughts. I am not sure. But, I still remember what it was like to hold her. I can still bring up those memories of how she felt and how she smelled and I sure hope that never goes away!

Dominic, Jessica and Andrew are at a children's grief camp this weekend. It is specifically for children that have experienced a significant loss. It sounds like they have a great program of mixing fun with sharing memories and I hope they enjoy it. I hope they will benefit from this experience.

Sending love your way my Faith. Mommy loves you.

Exciting News!

I am happy to report that we have a new addition to the Duarte Family! At this point, she is a foster placement, but we are hoping it will become an adoptive placement. So far, things are looking positive...but, of course, we have to be careful getting too excited (although obviously hard to do).

Due to the fact that she is a foster placement, unfortunately I cannot give out too much information at this time or post any photo's. I will tell you that she is beautiful and is 3 weeks old. She has some cardiac issues, just as Faith did, but luckily not as serious.

We feel extremely fortunate to have this child in our home and are falling more in love everyday. The events that led her to arrival with us are very "strange" and "coincidental" and I am positive some individuals from up above helped make it happen. :) I can't wait to have confidentiality lifted so I can share it all. Hopefully, we won't have to wait too long for that to happen.

"Keep Faith" things are meant to be for this amazing little girl to continue to stay with us.

The beginning

This week marks the date (March 30th) when our hell began one year ago.