7 years old

Happy Birthday Faith. Hope the heavens are throwing you a beautiful party! We love and miss you so very much. Wish we could be with you.

What a Grieving Mother Really Thinks...poem

Hello old friend,

Oh yes you know

I lost my child a while ago.

No, no please...don't look away

and change the subject

it's ok.

You see at first I couldn't feel

It took so long...but now it's real.

I hurt so much inside you see

I need to talk

Come sit with me?

You see,

I was numb for so very long

And people said,

"My she is so strong"

They did not know I couldn't feel

My broken heart made it all unreal.

but then one day, as I awoke

I clutched my chest,

Began to choke,

Such a scream,

Such a wail,

Broke from me....

My child!

My child!

The horror of reality.

But everyone has moved on, you see,

except for me.

Now when I need friends most of all,

Between us there now stands a wall.

My pain is more than they can bare,

When I mention my child

I see their blank stare.

"But I thought you were over it"

Their eyes seem to say -

No, no

I cannot listen to this, not today

So I smile and pretend...and say...

"Oh, I'm ok"

But inside I am crying

as I turn away.

And so my old friend,

I shall paint on that smile

As I have from the start.

You never knowing all the while

All I've said to you in my heart.

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